MY STORY TO HEALTH
A GRACIOUS EVOLUTION IN MOTION
Trauma caused me to close myself off as a protective mechanism.
Sexual abuse caused me to distrust the world so for years I didn’t let anyone in. I didn’t let myself cry for fear that a torrential flood would be released, so I held onto that emotion, as tightly as I could, in order not to implode or explode.
The emotions kept knocking, wanting to be heard, yet I get pushing them down further, suppressing them.
During these years I sat in a whirlwind of physical, emotional and mental pain. At first, this presented as physical conditions such as glandular fever, neutropenia, immune issues, fatigue issues but over time it showed up as chronic back and pelvic pain which eventually led to my diagnosis of fibromyalgia, a chronic pervasive pain disorder.
I experienced the lowest of lows, alongside debilitating pain that literally caused me to stop at a standstill for months and months on end. For years, I searched for both a diagnosis and a cure. I went from practitioner to specialist hoping to find this, only to realise that our current system fails to look at the cause of the presenting symptoms, instead, we look to simply mask and repress them.
FOR YEARS I DIDN'T LET ANYONE IN
I WENT FROM PRACTITIONER TO SPECIALIST and around and around IN HOPE OF A DIAGNOSIS AND CURE
I was riddled with pain and anguish. I was stuck in a vicious cycle of mental, physical and emotional pain. I had lost my purpose, my passion and my joy.
I had lost myself out of fear that there was no container big enough to uphold me, and out of fear, it would all be too much. I felt helpless, isolated and alone. I wanted to end my life.
it was at this point that i knew something had to shift
It was at this point that I knew that something had to shift. I started to delve deeper in order to find the underlying cause of my health conditions.
For most of us, our physical health is impacted by a culmination and combination of environmental stress, childhood traumas, lifestyle stress and emotions. These remain trapped and stagnant within our bodies and eventually turn into physical pain, health conditions, anxiety, mental health conditions and so on.
Once I started to unravel the layers, I started to unearth all my core traumas and could, in turn, take ownership of my own personal healing. I became empowered in my choices and living life to support not only my health and well-being but my heart’s desire. I started to trust myself, to like myself and then to finally love myself.
i took ownership of my own personal healing
I started to trust myself,
like myself & finally
to love myself
I now live in purpose every day.
I live on side with my side with my body and soul.
I have the tools to interpret my body’s pain signals when they arise and to be empowered in supporting her as opposed to defaulting into fear.
The joy, happiness, love and light have returned and when other emotions surface, I can honour them instead of rejecting them out of fear.
I now live with abundance and freedom and this is my utmost desire for you.
I’m here to tell you that regardless of your life experiences, your pain, or your health, you no longer need to sit in the suffering and the pain.
It is now time to break through your pain. Let's do this together. You are not alone.